I’m Not A Writer

I’m not a writer…. So I write.

No one told me I’m not a writer or I could never be a writer, I just don’t consider myself one….YET! I enjoy writing though. Very much so. I enjoy throwing my thoughts onto the screen like a bowl of alphabet soup and then trying to piece it together into a story. Not just a story but something that moves me, and that’s all that matters. I’ve been creating the last 8 months on the idea that I’ll make it exactly the way I want, I’ll make things that I like, enjoy and move or inspire me and the right audience would like it also. And it seems to be working so far. It’s almost therapeutic for me. And then to hear such great feedback on the things I write and the videos I make it drives me to keep going.

So I’ve been thinking about trying to write an autobiography. I have no idea how to write a book. I barely know how to write a blog! I’ve been researching it a little and it seems like I would just do the same as writing a blog in a way, just a lot more. I thought it might be neat to structure the blog into an autobiography. Make each post a page or part of a chapter. And then at some point I could piece it all back together and call it a book.

When I think back through my life I can’t imagine writing a book about it. It feels like it would be as thick as 2 boxes of tissues with paper like the bible. I would never read anything like that, unless it was about Jesus! Or maybe I should do a memoir! Something shorter. I don’t know.

So I thought I should direct it towards something, and the first thing I thought of was recovery. As I’ve been writing and making videos, the ones that seem to have the most impact on me and my audience (YOU) are the ones of me sharing things about recovery. It’s one of the main reasons I even started sharing my story in the first place. Maybe I could write it and get feedback from everyone as I go and it would leave other things in my life I could write about later if I wanted to.

Take the tissues out of the box and give them to you one by one instead of giving you the whole box! The way I would want it done for me!

I don’t know how it would work, or how it will look, if it’s a good idea, or if I’ll even be able to stick with it but I like the thought.

The other thing is I don’t know if it’s a good idea to share the book before I publish it? Ya’ll would have read the book before I ever got it done? But at the same time I think it would be hard to write blogs, make videos, do photography, work, not get divorced, 🙂 AND write a book at the same time!

I would love to hear what you think.